HEAVEN
(This one never gets old.)
A priest, a minister, and a transsexual woman were standing at the pearly gates in front of St. Peter.
First the minister spoke up: “I fed the hungry, clothed the poor, and spread the Word throughout the land.”
St. Peter said unto him: “You have done well on Earth, but you have sinned against your brother. You shall spend seven years in purgatory to atone for those sins you did commit then you shall enter unto heaven.”
The priest spoke up next, “I have done as my brother the minister has, and I have lived a life of sacrifice, humility, and chastity. I have served only God, kept only God’s laws, and I offer my unworthiness to God now.”
St. Peter reviewed his notes and spoke unto the priest. “You have indeed lived a pious life and yet you, too, have sinned. You shall only have to spend one year in purgatory for all have sinned and must atone.”
Next St. Peter turned to the TS and spoke softly, “Go on in dear, they’re waiting for you.”
The Minister and the Priest both protested to St. Peter, “Why in all our piety have we been condemned to purgatory whilst that creature, against whom we preached and whom we chastised, merely passes into heaven?”
St. Peter simply glared at the two and said, “Boys, she’s already been through hell...”
Heath
To you...
my heart, my thanks, and my utmost respect.
Rest in peace.
thanks a million
So many people... so many people who said that they'd "stick by" me and that they really liked reading what I wrote.
Thanks. Your invisibility speaks volumes.
...and THAT is the fucking story of my fucking life...
EVERYONE walks away... right after blowing smoke up my ass.
Those were the days.
The project is getting out of hand... I'm getting way too obsessive... finding more and more which I want to add in.
I wrote this in November of 2000:
In this wonderful society of ours, one of the first questions out of most people's mouths is always, "What do you do?" when they first meet someone. I've always hated that. I hate that a person is judged so quickly by how much money they make.
When you're a kid, "they" tell you that you can be whatever you want to be when you grow up. They never tell you the truth... that not only can't you be whatever you want, but if you want the wrong thing you'll be seen by society as a piece of dirt... and heaven help you if you ever can't hold down a suitable job, then you're just a piece of shit (raised to "dirt" level if you can manage the job of parenthood/homemaker).
From there, I ranted quite a bit on the subject.
My MS Interview
When was my first "flare"? - June of 1983
When was I incorrectly diagnosed? - 1986 (Mental Illness)
How long have I been "disabled"? - Legally, since 1994.
When was I correctly diagnosed? - 2004
What type of MS do I have? - I've been told "Chronic Progressive" and "Progressive Relapsing", but "Secondary Progressive" has also been suggested. I do not go into remission.
Which "drugs" have helped to treat my symptoms even a little? - B12, Atenolol, Testosterone, Cocaine is illegal and so is marijuana, Alcohol, Tobacco, and various pain relievers.
Which drug has most recently had the worst results? - Cymbalta. The pain was excruciating. Although I did almost end up in the ER from Verapamil.
Which MS specific drug therapies have I tried? - None, aside from repeated Solu-Medrol treatments.
Which MS specific drug therapy would I try? - Any which have been proven to work with the progressive forms of MS. Right now, there are none.
Where do I think MS "comes from"? - I think that it's from a combination of genetic and environmental factors.
Do I have any family members who had or currently have MS? - Not that I'm aware of, but it wouldn't surprise me if I found out that some of them did.
Do I have any family assistance in daily life? No. None whatsoever.
Do I have non-family assistance in daily life? I have a friend who helps me out for a few hours a week, picks up my prescriptions, and takes me to doctor's appointments.
What is my most debilitating (seemingly untreatable) symptom? - Paranoia.
What is my "lesion load"? - According to my last Radiologist's report, innumerable.
Do I have any areas where the lesions have "burned through"? - Not that I am aware of.
How was I diagnosed? - MRI and multiple tests, after losing my vision in my right eye because of Optic Neuritis.
Why wasn't I correctly diagnosed sooner? - They judged me by my unconventional appearance and declared me "mentally ill". They ignored my physical symptoms, and helped me to write them off as well by telling me that I was having "body memories" due to past/childhood traumas.
Do I think that MS is going to kill me? - I think that it is highly probable, whether it drives me to suicide or destroys the "wrong" part of my brain, it'll probably be the MS which is the cause of my death.
Has MS ruined my life? - Absolutely, but it had the help of many incompetent health care professionals and uncaring, judgmental family members.
Do I have other diseases or disorders, aside from MS? Yes. I'm diagnosed as having Dissociative Identity Disorder, and a Chiari I malformation has been appreciated by both a Neurologist and a Radiologist.
How can I tell the difference between an MS symptom and a Chiari symptom? Often, I cannot.
Do I think that they will ever find a cure for MS? - Probably not in my lifetime.
What is the one thing which I think most increases the rate of the progression of my MS? - Stress.
Weather or not...
It hit 53° (@ 12° C) here yesterday, and today it's supposed to hit 63° (@ 17° C). Just a few days ago the low was 0° (@ -18° C) and the high was 10° (@ -12° C).
No matter what the reason is that the weather is so funky, I don't think that it can be all too healthy. Not for me, anyway.
Tired of titling things.
